If you follow me on Instagram you'll know that I've really started to struggle this past couple of days. The enormity of what lies ahead is beginning to set in.
I feel like I say this all the time, but on a day-to-day basis, life is pretty perfect. We just have this massive hurdle to get over and it's really upsetting. It takes me back to November 2013 when we thought we'd only be away for a couple of weeks but ended up in Hospital with Martha for over two months.
The fact that Christmas is so close doesn't help. Where most of my friends have already finished their Christmas shopping and are ready to enjoy a carefree festive season, I can't even begin to look forward to Christmas.
In an attempt to pull myself out of this rut I've decided to look upload some photo's from last week when I felt a little more positive.
Last Monday was Halloween and the kids were off school for Teachers training. We'd wanted to visit the Weeping Window at Caernarfon Castle during the half term holiday and luckily we were able to get tickets for the Monday. My photography isn't anywhere near the level I wish it was, they don't do the display any justice because they were amazing.
We read this poem by Hedd Wyn (Ellis Evans) at school, he entered this poem in the National Eisteddfod and he won the "Chair"...unfortunately, he was killed on the battlefield and never knew that he'd won.
We were walking back to the car we heard an announcement for the last call for the 1:30 boat ride out along the Menai Straits. I didn't think the kids would go for it but as soon as I suggested a ride in a boat they got super excited and we all hopped aboard.
We couldn't have asked for a nicer day to be on the water, the Straits was so calm and the views were stunning. It was quite hard to believe that it was the last day of October because it looks like a day of summer.
It was quite chilly out on the water so when we were back on dry land we headed to a cafe where Mammi and Nainy shared a Cream & Jam Scone with a panad to warm up...Osh, Isabella and Martha all had Ice Cream.
It really was an amazing little day with my favorite people. A day where I could pretend we were just like any other family. These memories are the ones that will help carry me through the tough few weeks/months that lie ahead.