Tuesday afternoon I found myself at Capel Rhos-Y-Gad watching Osh's school Christmas Concert. The kids were all great but to be honest I found it really hard to follow; it wasn't a "play" with costumes- all the kids were just given a line each to recite and it couldn't have been fun for them (well not as much fun as last year - which was brilliant!)
As I sat there I could see Osh constantly looking over at me and giving me a cheeky smile; I suddenly remembered that when I came to see Osh's Christmas Concert last year - I came home from London to see it. As I sat next to Emma in the school hall, trying to seem happy in front of Osh and the other parents - inside I was a mess. The next morning Martha Grace was listed for theatre for her 3rd Open Heart operation.
Me and Mark hadn't actually discussed whether or not we were going to consent to that operation. Little baby Owyn had died at 16days old on the Monday,